A Small Meltdown and Some Shopping
Yesterday I decided I’d better pull my head out of the sand and start packing. Seeing that we are moving next week, it was probably a good idea. I dragged a whole bunch of stuff out of a cupboard to sort and pack. Some stuff needs to go into storage because it just won’t fit in the new house - things that have some sentimental value (other things I am giving away). Some needs to be stored until we build some shelves in the house. As I started packing, I just got this huge feeling of being overwhelmed which ended up in a tiny, little meltdown… I called my dh and told him I wasn’t moving. He told me off, very kindly and firmly, (Especially when I told him that I needed a FIXED curriculum or else our kids wouldn’t become educated! LOL! Yes, I can laugh about it today..) and reminded me that he is going to try to take the week off.
The minute I hung up from my hubby, my parents rang. My mother always seems to know when one of her daughters is down in the dumps. 
A few tears later we had next week all sorted out. My parents are going to come and help out. My dad is the master packer. My mother just hangs around for moral support and makes cups of tea! My mother-in-law already offered to come and help clean the new house,… so all of a sudden things looked a lot brighter.
Another thing that was stressing me was that Elizabeth desperately needed summer clothes. I had started making a dress, and I took it out to keep working on it yesterday. Again, I just felt this feeling of being overwhelmed. I knew if I added that to my list of complaints my hubby would tell me just to go shopping! He is working from home the next few days, so I told him that Elizabeth and I were going to go shopping together for clothes. His response? “Great! I’ve been telling you to do that for ages!”
My husband is one of the most easy going fellows I know, especially when it comes to spending money. He would much rather me go and buy clothes than make them, if it stresses me out. He knows that I have a lot on my plate with homemaking and homeschooling, and if something will make it easier for me, he is willing to spend the money (if we have it!). He expects far less of me than I expect of myself. Having said that, he is also very supportive of me if I want to make clothes myself, and is happy for me to do so… but he is wise in seeing that at times like this when we need to move house for the third time this year, maybe sewing clothes for my daughter is not as big a priority as staying sane
I have found that when some things get too much for me, all of a sudden it ALL looks too much for me! Like yesterday, I went from feeling like I couldn’t cope with the move, to feeling like I could never sew again and that I was doing a bad job of homeschooling! Today, I can see clearer and know that I will cope with the move, I will sew again one day, and that homeschooling is going just fine. These are the times when I just need to stop and take a break, and spend some time with Jesus. He knows exactly how much I can cope with, and He will be there all the way. I think the enemy just loves to get to us at these times and tell us that we are useless. We need to stand firm against these negative thoughts, and know that we can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens us. “ALL” things are those things that He has for us, not necessarily the things we add to what He wants us to do… and I do have a tendency to keep adding things…!
So,…. Elizabeth and I went shopping this morning. We had a lovely time. Thank goodness for Big W (Walmart). Target had very little that I would consider modest and suitable for an 11 year old. We did much better at Big W, and now she has a lovely selection of everyday clothes and some for church on Sunday. It is a big relief to me. I can sort through her old clothes that are too small before we move and pass them on to someone else. And I can finish her dress at my leisure… after all, it is only spring….
November 15th, 2007 at 6:29 am
{{huge hugs}} take care of yourself..