Over the past couple of weeks, as I have tried to get back into a routine with school and home, I have felt myself becoming discouraged. I had it all so nicely planned! But we are struggling to get into that “nicely planned” routine! I know that part of this is a discipline issue, and part is just living life. No day will go the same as the day before, and we need to take each day and let it flow. My routine is just a guide, not a rigid “have-to-live-by-or-else”! Now that that is clear in my mind I can get on with the next issue - my blog & website!

As I was not seeming to get everything done that I wanted to get done, I did what the natural thing was and tried to see what I was doing that took up a lot of time, and then asked myself if it was a necessary part of my life, or just a distraction. One of these areas was my blog and website and the time I was spending on the internet. What was my purpose for this site and should it really be part of my life now?

Just the other day I was reminded about a verse God gave me at the beginning of the year:

“What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight;

what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs”

Matthew 10:27

God had been whispering lots of thing in my ears over the years, and each time I said to myself, “I’m not ready yet! I’m not old enough to be a role model! I can’t do it!!”

Finally I took the plunge and I was beset with doubts. I got my domain names, started blogging, started writing, and started proclaiming….. and little voices kept saying -”You can’t do it! You don’t have time! You should be doing other things!”

I did have encouragement along the way too, however. Robyn, my older woman, was excited to hear about what I was doing. She also has been a keeper all her life, and I was encouraging her to join in with me to be our “resident Older Woman” on this site! After thinking and praying about it, she realized that this was a way to share all the things she has learned over the years. She has no daughters, and as yet no grand-daughters, but she hopes one day she will have the latter. She was wondering how she could leave a legacy to them, and was so excited to think that this may be a way in which she could do so.

I was reminded this morning of the conversation Robyn and I had about leaving a legacy when I read this post:

Memoirs - Leaving a Legacy

I was encouraged, because this is one of the reasons I wanted to start this blog. I have often wished I had diaries, cookbooks or notebooks from my own grandmothers. I wish I could have picked their brains on how they used to live - how they brought up children during the war, and afterwards. How they managed their homes… how they were wives and mothers.

As much as I want to bless other women around the world with this website, I also want to leave a legacy for my own daughter and possible grand-daughters. Is this then worthy of my time at this stage of my life? Yes :), because if I wait until the children are gone, I will have forgotten what my daily life was like while they were growing up. I will forget the times when I felt down because I didn’t want to wash another dish, or cook another meal, or iron another shirt! I will forget the times when I came to the Lord in tears and frustration and the peace and strength I received afterwards. I will forget the times when we all piled into our bed, cuddled up, forgot about everything that was happening around us, and just enjoyed a book together.

Yes, this blog is worthy of my time. Leaving a legacy is worthy of my time. It is also worthy of yours. Do not be discouraged, dear friends. If God is calling you to spend your time on something specific at this stage of your life, then do it! He will give you strength and confirmation.